breaks and heartaches

Well, it surely has been awhile since my last post, but I do deem it necessary to give further insight. My Christmas break has dwindled down to a mere seven days, and I find no motivation to go back to school. The only voices I hear are of my mother scolding me only because I'm around...I honestly am a good kid who makes great grades. Sure, I may not be the same girl that I was in high school, but moving away and going off to college was one of the best decisions that I have made to date: I have found out exactly who I am, the friends I want to associate myself with and how I deal with conflicting circumstances. I may have not made the best decisions, but I do not regret any of them, each decision has helped mold my idea of how I want to live my life. I love God, but am far from perfect; I'm not that girly anymore, but I'm not a man...haha. I just wish my mother could see what an amazing impact school has had on my life...its been tremendous. After the divorce, I didn't think that I would ever be the same, but quite the opposite has occurred...I have found me...

ughhh..

Im so sick of the mundane mainstream lifestyles...
im tired of people viewing me as an exception because i have an extremely different personality.
who says that african americans can't listen to rock or dress preppy or whatever. who cares! i think that everyone is entitled to do and listen to anything their heart desires. As the end of my 1st year of college approaches, i realize how selfish i was in the past. I used to be one of those individuals who was offended if a person outside of my race listened to rap...but since learning that my heritage is not only from africa and being more educated, i realized no one gives a fuck if you don't want to follow a stereotype. As long as you are happy and don't harm another, i say have a damn good time doing whatever! Stop being prejudice and get along...it's 2009 for pete's sake. :)

HAPPY EASTER <3

well just a small update..i had a major allergy attack after walking 15 minutes from my dorm, i would like to give a small thanks to mr. pollen for that one! :)
i just want this semester to be over...i am absolutley NOT motivated to study for anything...
laziness has taken priority over the majority...i would much rather read gossip columns than learn the difference between perches and frogs anatomically. But seriously, who cares about blood and bones being a connective tissue or how blood flows from the superior vena cava/inferior vena cava all the way through the the aorta...ugh, lab tests are the bane of my existence, this truly is not a "happy" easter for me..

Just a small ode..

Every person needs that someone to help get them through the hardships of each day...and quite frankly i would be in a tissy without them...
1) my absolute best friend since 10th grade...the mac to my cheese, the grown up to my childish antics...

2) the pint sized genious who makes me appreciate being in my own skin, not afraid to be ridiculed for their intellectual capabilities..i.e. being a quintessential nerd like me..

3) the personal comedic with the vernaculer of a potty mouthed sailor, i hope she knows that she truly brightens up my day with a smile that could enlighten anyone's tumultous days..

4) my first male friend at college who makes me feel less like a dork for my masculine innuendo- related (if that even makes sense) humor...thanks for being the only one who gets my jokes

5) the girl with the prettiest spirit and the most angelic face...you have given me ample reasons to believe that belief is truly possible, even if you cant see the immediate outcome

6) finally, to the girl who isnt afraid of her own death because she is risking her life to be a pilot. if you have taught me one thing, it is to fight for your dream, regardless of its cost...

looking back on high school years, i truly felt like your friends come from big groups (like the popular kids) but now, i feel like i am a winner having 6 people that i can trust..and as for those popular mofos, after graduation, they began to hate each other...

In conclusion, friendship is like peeing on yourself...it's warm and everyone can see it! :)

Allergies anyone?

UGH! it's hilarious that my allergies are so horrible...i need to live in a bubble like jake gyllenhaal! it's pretty embarrassing to have to wipe your nose with you sleeve or your hand and have your professor come over to you and ask if you are okay while reluctantly handing you a toddler tissue covered in smiling monkeys! i wish the people who fall underneath the "tree hugger" catagory would find a way to prevent tree sperm from affecting my everyday life! :) if not, i will cleverly develop a way myself! <3

Do bad things really happen to good people?

I cant help but to feel like no matter how hard i try, i cease to make a better grade than those who don't bother to study at all...Im really not one for complaining, but it seems like since i started college, life has humorously handed me a bunch of lemons. After several repeated incidences with old room mates, i was moved to another room and put into a room where the word "consideration" was never even heard of. If you lived in a room where an individual turns the heat to 90 degrees in the brink of an almost summer, wouldn't you feel like you were loosing your marbles also?
Knowing me, i went to a christian school for the majority of my life, and entering college, i never imagined that i would be exposed to such mature subject matters so quickly. For instance, i am taking a sociology class which focuses on human sexuality...Okay, i can deal with the topic of sex...but i did not know that i was in store for learning "how to" engage in sexual activities...im squeemish about going into that much depth...the worst thing that has happened was seeing male frontal nudity and feeling like an elementary kid who just realized how they were birthed onto this planet.
SO, thanks a lot for bringing me back to reality college... :) i guess you can say it's not bad things that happen to good people, there are just slight mishaps that form character! ^.^